Just when I thought I had learnt a hard lesson from my very first relationship breakup at 17 years old? I was WRONG!!! I tried all ways make myself stop thinking about the breakup and resentful feelings I had, but they all didn't work. Finally, I thought I found my solution....
I was working part time at a fast food restaurant then (not famous one, has since closed down), and there was a couple of my JC friends working at the coffee place one storey below me. We would often take MRT together to and from work, and hang out for drinks after work sometimes. Soon, I begin to find myself taking more notice to one of them. She was a sweet looking girl, long hair and had big round eyes. Each time I chatted with her, or was even just standing next to her, I felt as if my heartbeat doubled! I felt the same old butterflies-in-the-stomach feeling again.. only this time minus the french fries..
Part of me was still nursing the wounded heart from my breakup. But part of me also misses and yearn for the love, care and concern I had felt when I was in a relationship. I wished I was attached once again... but I also wished that I don't want to have those tiring quarrels and squabbles again. I looked at my friend.. and my mind was thinking, "I hope she will be my girlfriend. She seems like a really nice and caring girl."
Overruled by emotions, I didn't care too much anymore... I just longed for and wanted to be with someone.. someone whom would shower me with attention and love. Armed with such a selfish love-seeking missle, I was totally irrational and wanted to take action to approach my friend and pop the question... BUT I didn't have the guts once again. So I did what I do best. During lunchtime one day, I took out a piece of paper and beganing writing..... (to be continued)
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